you said you'd move on,but where do i go

title: youth leadership dance camp 2009- Day 1
date: Tuesday, October 27, 2009
time:4:10 AM

HELLOS :D
if you had realised, i didnt go to school today. lol. i miss school. :(

the first thing we did was classical ballet. its so hard to catch up, but it was fun. doing real ballet ballet for the first time. so cool, it made me want to pursue more ballet after the Os. LOL. then we had lunch break! then we had icebreaking session. It was really fun. LOL. made new friends , all from different schools. then we had MODERN BALLET! it was the best of the best, i swear. it was so cool. but the steps were easy to catch, and we had all sorts of steps, and i think i hurt my shoulder. cause we had to literally kind of slide and fall on to the floor. SO COOL! hahahs. it was really good. really began have lots of fun. then we had teabreak! after that, we had leadership talk, then we had HIP HOP! that was fun too :D but seriously, i must say, i am not too much of a hiphop person, i like modern ballet and jazz better :D then the end! so fun!

and i learnt one thing today,

when you are dancing on stage, performing, forget yourself, u are not longer yourself. FORGET WHO YOU ARE WHEN YOU DANCING.

now i m home, trying to heal my painful wounds and aching. god damn, its really painful , LOL. however, after the camp i recieved a really painful and hurtful sms. i saw , i read it over and over again.i thought to myself: why is this happening? cant we just go back to how we are, who we are, like before? cause , i really hate this happening. why? why? why?

so this links to what i am going to tell xuefen and janell:

i am really sorry to tell both of you this. i have had enough of both of you quarrelling, bringing up stuff that is way past now. when i read your blogs, i thought to myself, "its really time to end whatever that happening." cause, probably the more we go on like that, the worse the situation will get. definitely, i m not going to stand on any side of you. probably both of you may think, " of course you would say that, its so easy to say that. cause everyone says it so easily out their mouth." i can seriously tell you guys, its really not easy being the middle man of both of you. you may think again," since its so hard, dont be lar. " fine then, i wont be the middle man of both of you anymore. cause its really just ever so tiring to see both of u quarrel. some of us, that means, wanrong,me,probably even huijuan and yvonne, i cant speak for Huijuan or yvonne cause i dont know, but i m very clear, and i m quite sure about wanrong too, that we are both sick and tired of this. we want to get out of this asap. so i m reaching out to both of you, if only you guys can put away whatever differences, put the past down, forget about it, and lets be who we are, the 6 best friends, who are always together, during recess, after school. i really wish to see that again. pls, take it as i m pleading to both of you, lets just put down whatever, and let bygones be bygones. the friendship between the 6 of us, is supposed to be strong, whatever problems we face, we would stand tall together, strong and face it together as one. our friendship isnt that fragile i believe. we can be friends again, like in sec1, we would usually go, "hi, i m so-and-so. you are?" can we just take it as though we are making a new friend again. take it as though you dont know her in your entire life. pls? i really want to end this. its not that i dont want to tell both of you this face to face, but its because i wont be coming to school for the next few days, so probably i wont be able to tell you guys. its not that i dont have the guts to tell you guys.

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