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title: goodbye 2009.   2009 is coming to an end already. some people would probably say, " at last, its coming to an end." some people would say, " OMG. so fast? i dont want to say bye to 2009. i love 2009." while for me, probably, i would say, " gosh. so fast. i do want to say bye to 2009, but yet, i dont bear to." 2009 has been a year full of surprises, ups and downs, different experiences. i dont know how many times i cry and smiled this yr. uncountable of course, but, going all the different kind of things make us grow up, and learn to make our lives more meaningful. in 2009, i went through many tough times. my results plunged like hell during MYE. friendship issues. we quarrelled and we cried over it. relationship issues. so many different things. i cant believe its already over. its history. i have made so many new friends. i dont want to leave 2009 because there are good memories, beautiful ones to keep. i want to leave 2009 because it left me with lots of cuts and bruises everywhere, leaving me to drown. i think abt the past now, for the past 15yrs of my life, what have i been doing? since p1-6, i didnt really study. i didnt do well for PSLE . in sec school, my pathway began to show its foot steps. telling me where i should travel to. until now, i am already 15. having going through so much, i ask myself. what have i really learnt? To let go of someone? Or to make sure that that someone is happy? Or ensuring that my results soar , and compete with people for results? Or to go for my dream, letting go of my studies? so many things. so many thoughts. how to choose? what to choose? why choose that? i dont even know what i really learnt. SYF dance. it was probably the best part of my dance passion. i really loved that part of 2009. that was one of the best parts of 2009. i think and think again. the more i thought, the more tears fall. have i really managed to achieve what i want to achieve this yr? or am i suppose to push it forward, to next yr? i cant bring myself to think any further. because so many beautiful, and bad memories come flashing back to me. 2010 is going to be a year full of tough times i believe. the road ahead is really rocky i foresee. probably not to all, but to me. a new phase of life is about to begin. but , the worse thing is that i cant seem to put 2009 down; to leave it behind. and start again. its so hard. i dont want to step into 2010. i dont want. really. dont. want. however, we still have to face the fact. everything leaves a mark. be it good, or bad. its still a fact we have to accept. goodbye 2009; hello hell 2010. |
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