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title:     things got a little out of hand today. had EL and CL p1 today. so tired. and also had math tutorial. and though its a holiday on the coming monday, I, have to go back for math tutorial from 10am to about 2plus? i dont know. i really dread going for it. seriously, i maybe be whinning like shit, but pls, let me off. i hate this. but however much i may hate it, i cant complain or whatsoever, cause its a pathway i chose to walk. now, how i wish i didnt chose this road. went to watch MAO'S LAST DANCER at vivo after tutorial. rushed home to bathed, and rushed to Vivocity from queenstown with bitch and lesbo, we cabbed down, ahhaha, and we were bitching in the cab , hahahha. MAO'S LAST DANCER WAS AWESOME. teachnique and dance wise, totally, blew me off. storyline wise, hmm, quite ok, quite sad, but its a true story.rather touching. camwhored a little only, but the pictures were really quite nice:D loved the one with the neon lights. at vivo, i stepped back on the pathway i wouldnt forget. we were just roaming about, thinking of where to take pictures. and as we walked , we reached the top , and i stepped on the area i would never forget; that area, the chair, and that path, would always remind me of those beautiful moments. though its already a memory, it will always be a good one :D |
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title: i guess, things did change for the better today.
things didnt get all emo anymore. i hope that it goes on like this forever. i hope time would pause at this very moment, where i could just let it be the way it should be. tmr's EL midyear, and i just had El tuition. tired out, but i still got to revise chinese. and El. i hope things go smoothly tomorrow. GONNA WATCH MAO'S LAST DANCERR :D with lesbo and the bitch, hahhaha, after math tmr. i guess from now on, i am my math's teacher's FAVOURITE STUDENT. hahhah. oh well, guess its better that way, i receive more attention from him. and maybe, JUST MAYBE, i could improve. i hope to improve, but i dont know how. like, even practising like shit doesnt work. it just doesnt work. go GOD. tell me what to do. i dont wanna fail anymore. i hate failing. sometimes, when people act happy when something bad happens, seriously, its doesnt really mean that. they're just trying to hide the misery they are going through, trying to make themselves happy i suppose. well, i guess, just let nature take its course. got to go, leaving this blog dangling, for probably a few weeks? i dont know, i would have the urge to come back to blog, but i know, got to studyyy for MYE! its COMINGGG. so sayonara. @YVONNE; hey, thanks for the tag |
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title: things changed slightly today,
well, quite moderate. we didnt speak i guess. we did say hi, but not much communication? oh well, if that is what its going to be like, then i guess, i have to go with the flow. i dont wanna do anymore i do hurt anyone. there were jokes today in class. VANS= WANS. VECTORS= WECTORS. if you know, laugh, u dont its okay. i got to go do WECTORS now byee |
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title: things get worse for me by the day.
i am basically, failing everything. amath, emath. at least i passed physics test. i hate math. i am begining to wonder if i should just drop math.LOL. but of course, its impossible. i dont know if i am stressed or whatsover. but i just feel like breaking down. i want to, but i know i cant. i have to strong. but i dont know how to. probably , its just a part of my life. and its not nice to be me. wanna watch MAO'S LAST DANCER. |
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title: screw my life man. seriously.
i fail my amath again. for like the dont know how "many-th" time! and now , i have to bloody go through a tough time for math, i really wonder if i am cut out to do amath, argh. i went to the library to mug today. met jiong ray there! hahah, we spoke for a long long time, catching up with him, abt OBS and stuff, hahh. missed him! ok, got to go. fml. @sakshi: will tell you! @neville: nothing. |
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title: things again, havent been going well already.
more things coming on tomorrow. if people know, they will know how i feel now. i dont know how to describe how i am feeling now. so many things happened lately. i seriously cant be bothered anymore. a walk to remember? my walk, its just so fucked up. |
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title: okay, i have officially screwed my vectors test today. people say that its easy, while me and nichelle. go , oh shit. screwed. we're gonna go for breakfast at 5.30am in the morning, then go for math at 6am in the morning. LOL. its so gonna be that way. so screwed.
argh, hate this. really really hate this. @morgan: ya, look at the "bright" side. the bright sidee. |
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title: okay,
Things didnt go too well today. got eff-ing scolded, come on lar. whisper only right, and not as though he is talking about something really that important,and he scolded. what the heck. was supposed to solve some problems early this morning, but the issue was still there. guess it takes alot of time to get over the problem. had chinese and math tutorial after school, went for dance a short while after that. i miss dance soo much,the sec1s were wearing the new dance tee, while sec2s wore the old onee. i miss dancee so so so much, i wanna go back and dance again. haix. but cant, stepped down alreadyy. there's vectors test tmr. and i had tuition just for it, i have really got to do pass it, if not, my head will go rolling down. hahah, alrights, got to go rest, good bye. @unknown; thanks; |
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title: everything's so screwed lately.
i screwed up all my tests, including CL oral today. like shit man,bloody oral. then something happened at school today, eff-ing screwed. things went all hay-wired, and things didnt turn for the better either. like seriously. FML. i dont wanna blog anymore, i m no longer in the eff-ing mood now. SO GOODBYE. like anyone's even gonna read this. i dont know how to face you. i know you are trying really hard, and so am i. i am sorry for what i did, i know that neither one of us, can control our emotions, but we have to. we need to learn how to.i'm sorry, i just dont know how to face you. and i am merely just running away from the situation. and whenever i see that you are like that, i feel even more guilty. it gets harder and harder every time. i feel that i cant even breathe sometimes. whats wrong with me, and whats wrong with my fucking screwed up life. i hate my life. i hate this. |
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title:  i met my MENTOR for math today for the first time! hahaha, rather nice guy. he's from Thailand i think, he's the same age as us, he must be damn smart, and he's in JC1 or JC2 i dont know. hahhaa, i asked him about vectors,and he had problems with it! DAMN!hahah, nevermind. it was more of a fun session today with that tutor. marcus asked for his number when he isnt even involved. HAHAHAH. alrights. had some IFD today. played some game in class. YAY PEGASUS WONNN :D hahha, its a good year for PEGASUS. well, i dont know about the following years, but oh wells. who cares. gonna graduate this yr! gonna get my ass outta this school! anyway, the teachers want us outta this school. HAHAHA. was pondering whether to go for dinner to celebrate KWAN'S birthday, since we had our mentoring till like 5.45pm? LOL. well, i couldnt go, cause i had dinner home. SORRY KWAN! i swear i'd celebrate a belated one with you! ;D hahha. so i went home, while nichelle and marcus went to "CELEBRATE" for him. well, still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID KWAN! hahahah. kays, i gotta go studyy. good bye. |
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title: boreddd of studying!
gosh. i havent even started raelly studying, and yet i am complaining i am bored of studying. more like bored of having tuitions everyday. well , almost. life's tough in sec4. its irritating. no more ccas, mondays and fridays suck to the core. no dance. and all we do is, STUDY; do Amath. do more math. stupid math. i should bloody get started on studying,but my mom never lets me out to study with my friends. bloody bloody hell. she said it takes up alot of travelling timeee! and its best to study in the comfort of my own homee,but come on, i am gettting sick of my hse, for like the past 10yrs of my life, i am stuck in this same house! get me outta hereeee;i wanna go out to study. NNOOOOOO. gosh. life sucks to the max. always. |
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title: sexy voice hellos. i have officially become ROSY. hahah, given by morgan and afiq. cause of my sexy voice i have now. i caught a major flu on tuesday, no like monday evening, after crying so much in dance, hahhah. then i lost my voice on wednesday. hahh. and i havent recovered yet ok, hahah. NOT YET. i got a freaking high fever on tuesday, like 38.7 degree celcius. and i went to see the doctor twice in a week, so much medication to consume man.
sick sick. coughing like mad still. LOL, HAHHAAH. >.< had amath tutorial today. so tired. gonna go resttt. |
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title: EMOTIONAL MUCH?
no, its just what we dancers do. yesterday, the sec4s stepped down from our duties from dance. before the ms lim or ms tan could say anything, i saw mslim tearing a little, and subsequently, here comes watertap voon :P certificates were given out to sakshi,sharmaine,me,cheryl,nichelle,nadhirah,meichi, and jvian, i think. vice-president,president, its all time to let go and step down. the juniors gave us little notes, all in a nice box, and cupcakes! i cried so much yesterday. and i have never cried so much like this before. it was simply, just so touching. every senior, except Joanne and Sharmaine didnt cry. just because they went through it before. the seniors really cried, so badlyy. and we still took pictures. i love krdt. we cry. we laugh. we get scolded together. we perform. thats what dance in kr is all about. UNITY. and we're never ever gonna get a chance to stand at the barre and talk during our barreworks, dance with the juniors, and have fun with everyone ever again. however, these memories would always be kept in our hearts. KRDT, i love every single one of you. those little notes, so meaningful. cupcakes with our names? every single bite i took, reminded me of everyone of you. thank you krdt. i love you guys to the max. todayy, david gave the seniors a hand-written letter. just as i was reading, i left my tears swelling up in my eyes again. it was just, so touching. every single detail abt me and him, from sec1 to now. nichelle almost cried. LOL. HAHHAH. now, maybe because i cried so much yesterday, i have a major sore throat and a high fever. thanks dancerrs! but in a good way :P got to go rest. i wonder if i can turn up at school tmr. hope i cann. |
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title: KR 10th anniversary     yesterday, i could say that it was the best time of my life in KR! it was KR's 10 anniversary, though its just 10 years old (=.="), the performing arts worked super hard for it ok! especially dancers! HAHHA. CAMWHORED SOOO MUCH YESTERDAY! HAHAHHA. many of the dancers were not feeling well yesterday. including me. i felt so dead. so tired in the afternoon when i first started my warm-ups. after a while , things got better. MSTAN AND MS LIM TREAT EGG TARTS! special kind of egg tarts from IMM ! HHAHAHA. then we ran through our piece twice. then we went for technical rehearsal. then went for makeup! HAHAHA. everything was so memorable. when it was performance time, everyone was so tense up. we did meditate before we went up to perform. it was probably my last time doing that with krdt. seniors came back. well some. while we were performing i could see my friends, though nervous but yet i was enjoying myself. really really enjoying, i love the dance! after that, we went camwhore-ing. HAHAH, took so many nice pictures. so much to remember. went to west coast park with morgan after that. then mom fetched me home from there. thank you krdt. you guys have brought my so much joy and laughter. love you guys to the max. |
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title:  had quite a day today at school. went to school early, did a little rehears-ing for some awards day. Got my award :D HAHAH yay. its a real hot day today; tmr's awards day already! 10th anniversary for krdt. they made the school so freaking grand. LOLS. gonna camwhore tmr! :D i'll miss krdt so so much. their laughter, their bimbotic talks, hahhh. we're so bimbotic. HAHAHA. But i wont go back until MYE's over. got to concentrate on studying, and then go back. so that the juniors who are taking over wont be so "UGH" , like Dovedy said. HAHHAHA. ok, i am going off already. goodbye. KRDT <3 and the picture is not the most recent one. :P |
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title:  was in the art room in school, with janell, morgan,huijuan,xuejun and farah! HAHAHAH. hi! hhhahaha, morgan wrote that. LOL. now damn sian. just now went for photo-taking for some awards thingy, wear some damn tie. damn irritating sia. LOL. more like very suffocating thing. HAHAHAH. am gonna go for lunch with them and go home later on to use my mom's laptop. spencer's complaining. i have to retake my bloody heymath test. OK ALL THOSE ARE MEANT TO BE POSTED UP JUST NOW. now i m back home, finally. gosh i m so tired. lols. i still have to study for vectors test tmr, plus SBQ- SS, plus POA.screw lar! argh. nevermind, no point complaning. lols.so goodbye. @morgan: hahhah. ok fine, scared people steal ur linkk? HAHHA. @ilya: yea, totally agree. its hard, and with memories always stuck in ur head, its so freaking hard to erase it off my head. its hard to erase u off. why. its freaking hard. what so good about u. i really dont know. i dont even understand why i still think abt you. about our past. memories. its really not as easy as people say. but it all doesnt matter anymore. u dont care abt me, i dont care abt u. its as simple as that. its that simple. |
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title: i guess its time for us to let go, and step down.
times flies so fast this year. its like a moment i am still in sec3, the next i am already 1/4 through sec4. i wish that the clock can be turned back to when i was in sec2. the innocent little me, that obeyed almost everything. but yet, i think twice, and i realised , whatever that whoever i am now, is a much happier me i suppose? having slightly more freedom of speeh, or in general freedom, and of course, being a youth. well the last yr of being a youth to be exact. i will miss my dance instructors and dance teachers. i will miss krdt, especially SHAWN YAP. hahaha. funny guy. its time to get started to study already. so i guess, its time for all the sec4s to grow up. and get serious about the Os. got to go, study. hhahha. byebye. like anyone's even gonna read this. blogging for the fun of it. @morgan: oh, how come no links? its time for me to let go of you, since there's no response. why bother thinking and waiting any longer. but i dont know how to let go. teach me how. could anyone, any soul teach me how to let go? |
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title: IGNOREE THIS POSTTT havent been blogging for quite a while already.
quite a number of things happened lately. and i dont know how to face them seriously. sometimes, when you need to break down, you cant. you have to stay strong to face them, if you refuse to, the issue would come back to haunt you. but it never happens in my case. never. ever. i try to face the problem, but what happens? things probably goes worse. stupid isnt it; sometimes life's just such a fucker. really hate it. Have been to much into dance lately, till all my results dropped tremendously. and Mr Asan even said that he wants to talk to me. talk about what? rebellious? come on, who would even believe that i am rebellious. only idiots would believe that. oh well, maybe i am :P hahaha. ok, lameness. been so much into dance lately. for the past week, its a full week of dance. i didnt have to time to study. thats why my phy and chem test would be so freaking screwed. and i already know it. i dont need anyone to tell me. i am only hoping, probably dreaming, that i can have a day before i really get down to studying, a day to go shopping, and someone who can listen to me, and really let me say everything out. i am more bothered about the fact that mr asan wants to speak to me. i hope he doesnt call my mom and tell her a whole lot of crap. knowing my mom, she would come home , nag at me. i dont want her to worry either. stupid crap. i have been getting all pmsy lately. whats wrong with me? is it just me, or is it that i have become weirder and weirder each day. and somehow, i dont seem to know myself anymore. its like, i have changed, become a different person already. whats getting into me. its like, i make myself happy to hide my misery. what a stupid way to run away from reality. but trust me. its works. |
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